What am I doing?

Well once again I am at a loss for what I am going to do! I feel feelings for someone I left behind a while ago! I don't know what to do with them! I think he is the only one I truly loved! But you see it is complicated! I can't! It just makes things hard! How do I let go? Life is just more complicated as I get older! I wish things could go back to a couple years ago sometimes, but then I wouldn't be ME! How and why linger in my mind constantly. I have a crush on this other guy I work with, but I just don't know how he feels! He flirts, but I don't know! and my coworker likes him too! What to do, what to do?

another day in the life of Rachy-poo
oh no even that brings memories! i hate memories!