"Look at the positive"

My coworker told me to look at the positive today when i was complaing about all my friends getting married. She said just think of all the things you will get to do that they won't because they are married! This is so true! I get to go to Samoa! I don't have to really worry about anyone when it comes to my finances but me! I have really bad spending habits right now! I need to work on them! Like really bad! I am saving though! $25 dollars a paycheck goes to my savings! And $25 goes to my Samoa fund! But i do have more freedom without someone! I can just go on these trips because i feel like it! I just save up the money and go! Also i get one more year on council. If i was married i couldn't do that! Well just keep looking at the positive! Take chances just cause i can! I get so nervous to actually try something! I need to relax! If i don't try something i will regret it later! What's stopping me? My fear!

well that's another day in the life of rachy-poo

Will it get any better?

Well once again another day is more than half over! It's amazing to see the season change slowly as the days go by! I sometimes wonder if I will gain control again! My emotions are raging inside and my only outlet it seems are tears! This week has been really bad! I feel like a fool! A sobbing fool! What exactly is causing all this turmoil i am not sure! I wish i could just pin point it and fix it! But that's life! Maybe this is supposed to be happening! I just cry and move on! Happy music helps! Frank Sinatra's The Way You Look Tonight!

another day in the life of rachy-poo

Life is like a roller coaster!

Well today was going pretty well! Then I didn't eat lunch until like 1:30 and that was too late! I got a headache! I have been really emotional today! It didn't help that Kevin sent an email asking how I was and what was going on? Just like out of nowhere! It just pushes me back into liking him again! A lot!! well yeah and i got asked today to be the right hand "woman" for next years council president, Tyler! That's right he is going to be on council again and be president! Crazy! It's going to be hard not to tell people! I have wanted to so badly! Well if anyone ever found out they would have to be silent! Well that is going to be fun but crazy! Now everything i was going to do to help next years council is, well for myself in a way! Crazy but whatever! I am excited!

rachy-poo

LIfe is crazy!

i am happy don't get me wrong! i just have a hard time breaking down every day at the simplest things! The littlest thing will bring up a memory and there it goes i lose it! I hope one day i can have less emotional outbreaks! I am ahead in my classes and that feels great! Never will i fall behind again! It causes to much extra stress! I have enough of that stuff already! And i am not complaining, but i just wish i didn't feel alone! My friends are all getting married! Someday is what i keep telling myself!

another day in the life of rachy-poo!

Spring is in the air!

Well from my last few blogs you might think i am a very depressed single college student. All are true descriptions except depressed. I have been lonely and sad, but i am doing alright now! I feel good! Yes i still get sad and lonely and a little jealous of the couples everywhere i go, but i am dealing with it! I just got caught up on my homework and now i am ahead and you know what? It feels wonderful! For all you students out there do it! You feel light and carefree and you have more time for the fun you try to have instead of doin your homework in the first place! I would trade all the pain and heartache i've had for anything! Without I wouldn't have had the good memories that came before the anguish! and you know what i have learned a lot from them too! if you don't risk your heart you will never find any joy! when you let it go is when you find happiness! True there will be bumps but after those come some of the funnest times ever! I had fun with those guys will it lasted! And i will have fun again with someone when the time is right! Believe it or not!