What hurts the most

"What hurts the most is being so close. Having so much to say and watching you walk away." This is a new song by Rascal Flatts. When I heard it for the first time I just couldn't believe it! It was exactly what I was feeling at the time. It came on today on my way to school and I once again felt this connection to the words. For me it really is the fact that I get so close to someone and for one reason or another it doesn't work out. It hurts so much to put your heart out there and risk it and then for them to throw it back at you as they walk away. And you have so much to say like, please come back; why; did I do something; did I not do something; you know the whole deal! This what my life revolves around right now! And you know it is just probably something i need to learn from, but right now it hurts. Seeing pictures, cars, restaurants, movies, all things that only remind me of what I have lost! I know they weren't for me, but for once i just want it to all work out. I just want a boyfriend! Not necessarily someone i am going marry, not that i would object! But i do feel i have somethings i need to get done still! But why can't it work out for me! It works out for everyone else, all my friends are starting to get married! I feel like "i am wishing on someone elses' star!" Well i guess that is enough of my tangent tonight! I do need to get some homework done! So over and out!